Jesus,
There is absolutely nothing on this planet that is sweeter than your presence. There is nothing that matters more to me in this world than sitting with you and feeling the lightness of your Holy Spirit that is both surrounding me and within me. There is nothing I would rather to than to be with you, and I’m sorry for all the times that I’ve let myself get distracted and forgotten about the things that are truly important.
I’m sorry for all the times I have turned to other people to define what my identity is. I’m sorry for the times I have chosen to watch TV instead of praying or reading my Bible. I’m sorry for allowing our American culture define my identity, specifically my identity as a woman. I’m sorry for falling into the lie that all woman have to weigh a certain number to be worth something in your eyes, and believing for so many years that the next diet would be my key to losing weight and would thus finally allow me to unleash the fullness of my identity in you. I’m sorry for the times I have turned to food to somehow attempt to simultaneously cope with and numb my difficult emotions.
I’m sorry for all the times I have allowed the fear of not having enough money control my innermost thoughts. I’m sorry for ever, EVER doubting that you would show up in my life when you have never been anything but faithful. I’m sorry even for the times I have been tempted to put my identity in things I’m good at, and somehow allowed those things you have gifted me at to become what I take my pride in and then to thus turn into what defines me as a human being.
I’m sorry for ever being discontent in the season of singleness I am in right now. I’m sorry for thinking that meeting a man would mask the difficult struggles that I have faced in my own mind and heart, and would somehow both cover up and alleviate my lifelong struggle of trying to define my own identity. I’m sorry for putting all my weight into a person I may or may never meet, and I’m sorry for ever not completely trusting you with my future in this way. And, most importantly here, I’m sorry for allowing the thoughts, hopes, and dreams of other people dictate my viewpoint of my own singleness, and allowing that viewpoint to drive me away from the peace and contentment that I can have in YOU alone in every season of my life, Jesus.
My prayer for all those who are reading this blog is that they would encounter you Jesus like they have never encountered you before, and that they would come face to face with both the power and the gentleness of your manifest presence. I pray that they would experience the peace that surpasses all understanding, and just like the Apostle Paul said in Philippians, I pray that they would learn the secret of being content in every circumstance – whether well fed or hungry, whether having plenty or being in want. We love you, Jesus. And we’re sorry for ever pursuing anything or anyone above pursuing you.
Philippians 4:6-7: “Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus”, (NLT).
Philippians 4:11-13: “Not that I was ever in need, for I have learned how to be content with whatever I have. I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little. For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength”, (NLT).
Ephesians 2:10: “For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago”, (NLT).
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We Christians have a new identity in Christ. He gives us purpose and a meaning for our lives. I remember I used to not have a purpose to do anything in life. I was doing really bad and I will admit that I was depressed, but the Lord guided me to have the things that I wanted to have. The Lord helped me to live a life that is pleasing to him. Now, I think the Lord is doing big things in my life because of that. I just pray that the Lord may reign in my heart forever. Don’t be so hard on yourself because we all sin and fall short of the glory of God. I have committed sin and my sin is not greater than yours and vice versa. We are all equal unto the eyes of the Lord therefore, we must confide in him for everything. You have admitted these things to God and that’s all that matters.
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